Not quite, my friend. 'Tis more of a mention that life makes unexpected twists and turns. As we do not know what the future may or may not hold, it is better to live than to wait.
[ Former best friend. So there had been a falling out... And yet the man behind Kaveh is still. With him? Kaveh is quite. Hmm. Blind. ]
[It's stupider than that, G'raha. It's so much stupider than that.]
...I know that. I know that, but...
[How does he trust Alhaitham again, after being so horribly flayed open? How could Alhaitham trust him to not run away this time? Does Kaveh even deserve that trust?]
Yet you still gravitate towards one another. You live together and even have went so far as to share a room though such a thing is not needed. He is someone towards which your thoughts drift, at the best of times and at the worst of times.
One's capacity to be hurt by someone is only matched by that person's importance. The question, then, is do you both wish to continue hurting or do you desire healing?
[He trails off. to admit any of this out loud is...
...He needs a drink.]
...He's done so much that I can't even begin to process it. And I've been...difficult. My views aren't wrong, and he can't convince me otherwise, but I...might have been too harsh on him, too.
Individuals, even those that are close, can have contrasting and conflicting views. This is not an issue, truly, if both parties can learn to respect the person and their perspective - if nothing else. It is through empathy and understanding of those perspectives that hearts are able to mend.
People say harsh words that they cannot take back, 'tis true enough. There is little use in making an attempt in doing so or pretending like they were never said at all. Best to own what was said, if only to learn from the experience and grow through it.
Ah, so you do understand on some level. Full glad am I to hear it.
[ There is a quiet hum. Hearing that Kaveh doesn't consider himself to be brave? Well he doesn't quite know about that thus he cannot comment on Kaveh in particular. ]
Most are not. Bravery is the act of facing difficult circumstances without showing fear. It is endurance. However, courage is the ability to face those circumstances despite fear. It is finding strength through the pain.
I would not go that far. In truth, I was rather content to acknowledge my own "complications." However, I had companions that would not allow the matter, or myself, to rest. Thus I, too, am still learning what it means to live without allowing those "complications" to hinder me.
[ There is a sigh and a bit of silence on his end. Honestly, G'raha excels at dodging these things. But when someone puts it like THAT then that nasty thing like guilt starts to appear. ]
It isn't quite as you say. My own complications have emotional ties to them, yes, but I do mean it is a complicated affair.
After all, I am neither young nor old and yet I am both. I am G'raha Tia, but also not and yet I am still.
"Trapped" is not an accurate statement. More like I created the time anomaly. Or, rather, a portion of who I am presently did.
I have a rather unique inheritance and thought that the best way to avoid being used by others was to seal myself away in a place that only I could access. Yet when the people of the star finally possessed the ability to break into this location, two hundred years had passed. The world was on the brink of collapse, another calamity having taken place shortly after I had put myself in stasis.
Thus the people of the era had a plan: to undo what had been done. The only person that could succeed in this endeavor was myself. We missed our mark by approximately a hundred years, but it gave me adequate time enough to prepare.
When my task was complete and our star saved, my life's candle was expended. Yet my companions elected to carry my soul to the version of myself that still remained in stasis. Thus two became one.
[There is going to be a very long silence because g'raha WHAT THE FUCK? WHAT THE FUCK!!!]
...I asked for this. [Inhale. Deep sigh. Okay Kaveh we're just gonna dissociate a little, we're good.
If he breaks it down, it's outlandish, but don't most of the pieces for this kind of thing exist? Tirzad Hirbad's paper was abject nonsense and Kaveh's not sure about the concept of the Golden Slumber or Pairidaeza but the Traveler has no reason to lie...and time stasis is a proveable fact, so leylines moving people about through time is at least plausible. As for the rest...]
Here I gave you the condensed version of events. The full tale is far more head spinning, I assure you. There are many things that happened after as well.
[ Another chuckle and a soft smile. ]
I wasn't alone, do not worry so. The people of the Crystarium were a joy to watch over for the nine decades I was with them. They worried over me quite needlessly. I hope that they are doing well even now.
[He laughs a little weakly.] I suppose it shouldn't surprise me. With so many long-lived beings in Teyvat...age is really hard to judge by appearances alone.
[But he still lowkey though G'raha was younger than him...]
Most races of my own star only live approximately eighty to a hundred and ten summers. Viera are the only ones that may live upward to two hundred and forty.
Liyue's adepti are...I don't know a lot about them, and they don't much like to speak with humans, but the stories speak of animals with divine knowledge and godlike skills, that fought alongside Rex Lapis in the Archon wars. They do sometimes take on disciples but...I couldn't tell you the criteria.
Alhaitham may have read about it, but I don't think he's been to Liyue much either.
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[...There went his mouth again.]
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Not quite, my friend. 'Tis more of a mention that life makes unexpected twists and turns. As we do not know what the future may or may not hold, it is better to live than to wait.
[ Former best friend. So there had been a falling out... And yet the man behind Kaveh is still. With him? Kaveh is quite. Hmm. Blind. ]
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...I know that. I know that, but...
[How does he trust Alhaitham again, after being so horribly flayed open? How could Alhaitham trust him to not run away this time? Does Kaveh even deserve that trust?]
...We hurt each other so terribly.
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One's capacity to be hurt by someone is only matched by that person's importance. The question, then, is do you both wish to continue hurting or do you desire healing?
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[He trails off. to admit any of this out loud is...
...He needs a drink.]
...He's done so much that I can't even begin to process it. And I've been...difficult. My views aren't wrong, and he can't convince me otherwise, but I...might have been too harsh on him, too.
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People say harsh words that they cannot take back, 'tis true enough. There is little use in making an attempt in doing so or pretending like they were never said at all. Best to own what was said, if only to learn from the experience and grow through it.
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[He huffs out a pained little laugh.]
...I am not a brave man, G'raha.
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[ There is a quiet hum. Hearing that Kaveh doesn't consider himself to be brave? Well he doesn't quite know about that thus he cannot comment on Kaveh in particular. ]
Most are not. Bravery is the act of facing difficult circumstances without showing fear. It is endurance. However, courage is the ability to face those circumstances despite fear. It is finding strength through the pain.
Mayhap what is needed, then, is not bravery.
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[He laughs a little, and shakes his head.]
You make it sound so easy.
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[He's had a very long life to do incredibly stupid shit, Kaveh.]
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[CALLIN' YOU OUT, CAT.]
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So. Enjoy the bratty lit to his voice. ]
That would be because it is well and truly "complicated."
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A little unfair to prod emotional honesty out of me without returning it, isn't it?
[He's self-aware, at least.]
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It isn't quite as you say. My own complications have emotional ties to them, yes, but I do mean it is a complicated affair.
After all, I am neither young nor old and yet I am both. I am G'raha Tia, but also not and yet I am still.
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[You have been mentally upgraded to his replacement Faruzan, sorry.]
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I have a rather unique inheritance and thought that the best way to avoid being used by others was to seal myself away in a place that only I could access. Yet when the people of the star finally possessed the ability to break into this location, two hundred years had passed. The world was on the brink of collapse, another calamity having taken place shortly after I had put myself in stasis.
Thus the people of the era had a plan: to undo what had been done. The only person that could succeed in this endeavor was myself. We missed our mark by approximately a hundred years, but it gave me adequate time enough to prepare.
When my task was complete and our star saved, my life's candle was expended. Yet my companions elected to carry my soul to the version of myself that still remained in stasis. Thus two became one.
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...I asked for this. [Inhale. Deep sigh. Okay Kaveh we're just gonna dissociate a little, we're good.
If he breaks it down, it's outlandish, but don't most of the pieces for this kind of thing exist? Tirzad Hirbad's paper was abject nonsense and Kaveh's not sure about the concept of the Golden Slumber or Pairidaeza but the Traveler has no reason to lie...and time stasis is a proveable fact, so leylines moving people about through time is at least plausible. As for the rest...]
It sounds like it was a lonely sort of task.
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[ Another chuckle and a soft smile. ]
I wasn't alone, do not worry so. The people of the Crystarium were a joy to watch over for the nine decades I was with them. They worried over me quite needlessly. I hope that they are doing well even now.
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[He laughs a little weakly.] I suppose it shouldn't surprise me. With so many long-lived beings in Teyvat...age is really hard to judge by appearances alone.
[But he still lowkey though G'raha was younger than him...]
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Regardless, this body is twenty and four.
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[Sighing, and scrubbing his face a bit.]
Well, that explains one part. A part of you is younger than I am.
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Alhaitham may have read about it, but I don't think he's been to Liyue much either.
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